Heavily destructed; devastated.

I am fallen, wrecked, and in a decayed condition I am a ravaged individual. I can't breath. I only feel you holding me tight in your arms even though that time has come and passed.
you live and stay as a permanent resident in my mind, causing such destruction to my heart. tarring any peace of mind I'll ever have. eventually i will have a quite mind.
i have failed inadvertently to retain from losing you in such a way that it cannot be immediately recovered from.
I just don't think that you being with her will ever be irrelevant, I don't think that i should pretend that your smile was meant for me. somethings been different in the way I live ever sense i met you. your posture feels well posed. letting you go only has the definition of never.
so toss and turn. The feelings are perpetual.
I am a ravaged individual I am heavily destructed; devastated. I feel robbed of my heart and destroyed by force and violence. you completely robbed me from ever feeling normal again. wow after that i must admit you're actually quite clever.you've earned the title of cold hearted man.