I cannot live without you
For it would be- Life.
And "Life" survives, with such disdain
Under some glass ceiling.
But we, we are searching for Eternity
And we are guessing time for tomorrow
And you, you are devoting years
And I, I am dreading your doubt.
And I cannot die without you,
For in your arms,
To be there, once
Is where I die.
And I could not stand by
Knowing I was your, Grand dream
And crushed it, with Reality
Of letting you have me.
How shallow. Love?
And I could not love without you
For those vast, empty hills
full of expansive time for longing
Gone. A gap in the heart?
For I sought Heaven
While you served Science
And turned your gaze
from Paradise. It is not yours
to wonder on or court.
I, convicted time and again
You, preordained condemned
But I, knowing you never deserved it
The thought in itself is Hell for me.
So we must not remain apart
But look together for Eternity
In hopes of finding quiet Mortality
Through tribulation and reconciliations-
Tears- anger- remorse- embrace-
Despair for one another, repair each other
Relentless pride, forgiving surrender
All for maybe, a shining, awaiting grace
Gained through time, distance and wisdom.
