Haunted By Self

Help! I scream
But no one can hear me,
No one can see me,
No one..but the nightmare that chases me.
Right there is the exit where I can be free
But further and further it seems to be away from me.

How could this happen?
Can't find the connection
Then I'm caught, BOOM I drop
I've lost all my protection!
The light flashes & I'm forced to look at my reflection.

Who is She?
This human being I cannot perceive to be me.
Could this be what's twisting & churning,
Burning my insides,
Yearning for the chance to come alive?

No!
She was buried at 13!
Maybe I forgot to say R.I.P
Now She's come back to haunt me,
Taunt me with reality
Truths to which I chose to be naive to.

Memories have re-prised now that I look into Her eyes
Those eyes that threaten to be the cause of my demise
The reason why each night I cry,
Why I choose to hide
But there is nowhere to turn
Because it's me She's set out to find.

She's hounding me like Paul Revere
Revealing every enemy,
Every sin kept in secrecy
So sinister I cannot bear to speak
My knees are buckling, I'm beginning to feel weak.

This is something I cannot fathom,
I can't unscramble..the web of lies I've become entangled in.
I look at Her wishing I could
"Turn back the hands of time."
Wishing She still had that same sparkle in Her eyes.
Now that spark that used to ignite warmth & delight in each soul has turned cold.

Hidden behind this mask is where I've stayed.
This mirage of visages enabling me access to different roles to be played.
But I can't disguise this pain that
Tears Me, Tears Her, Tears Us
Apart inside.

She stands over me,
As I am bound by lies,
And for a moment I see the being we used to be.
The minute soon passes and & I'm lying six feet deep
For She has killed me..killed Her...killed us

So who was She?
Simply an Angel who fell from grace
Wandering through this world in search of a better place.