Hey,
The core issues in reuniting us as one again and to strengthen our relationship is to learn how to appreciate one another. How i dertemine is by the respond to myself. In addition,i must also form a healty and loving relationship with ourself.i know that your love for me is starting to fade.i knew since the day i read the paper u wrote.A day on arising, and a day on befalling. The sun reaches its zenith. i sit somewhere quiet where there is no one around.i Closed my eyes and concentrate on my slowy breathing.Every actions i take lays a pathway in my mind.I understand what love is about now.Love is patient and kind, is not jealous or concited or proud.Love is not selfish or iritable,love dont keep records of bad things.Love is not happy with evil.Love is happy with the truth!I realised that my love for you never gives up,and my faiths,hope and patients never fail.I want to spread all my love to you.As you move on in life, i want to see you a better and happier person!My deep affection interest is to gain the power to heal,comfort,inspire, and ultimately,to give life to you.I always keep problems to my myself.as you notice,i kept saying im okay.i'm more concern about you than myself.I ran away from my own fear.My fear is a result of sense of seperation.I ran and try to take all the burden to myself.
How do i find other ways to express my love to you.im just being myself.what you said was true."The greatest challenge in life is to find someone who will accept them for who they are.who will be there when they need them,who will be happy for who there are"
my love for you have never ever have a sense to fade as i have hope in you.i still have faith in myself. My love for you is always sincere and true.
The feeling of unbearableness because of this.How do i get rid of this off my mind.Dear,save me from the darkness within my heart.Show me the the light and show me the way out.Sometimes i know u are lying.To me,i just smiled,be happy,try to understand the situation you are in and dont expect anything in return.
Why do i always have this thinking?thinking of the resonance of what makes me a better person.There are so many obstacles i need to overcome.I must endure.But what are the ways that i can overcome my obstacles? Is there anyone who will truly be there when I need them? I just don�t know why I�m always looking down on myself.I need to be confident in order to get stronger.I need to have hope in myself in order to get stronger.Which direction do i turn now?Left or right?I'm so comfuse and hurt. I do have a flexible body and yet a weak heart,soul and mind.Why cant i love myself?why cant i look up on myself?I want to feel free from stress and feel I�m good in something. Am i a star child where i can strive my goals or basically,im just a useless child.Where is the happinese im searching for?Where?I dont want be alone no more.i dont want to suffer. I want to live.i want to be happy. I want a happy life. I want you.I want happinese within from beyond.laughter,humour and laughing.I want to laugh and i want the world to laugh with me. I feel so neglected.i feel that im being thrown away.i want my friends,family and you to care for me.it is so painful.it is intensively deep.Allow me to ask, Does love matter in ages? When I first think about it. Yes, But as I slowly understand what love is truly about. NO, it doesn�t, IT DOESN�T MATTER IN AGES! I don�t care what people want to say.
But if you want to say good bye
i need to respect your decision and face the fact like a man
But for your info.
IloveYou
And I don�t want to lose you
Don�t leave me till I�m gone for good!
Please������
~MrReD~
Written on the 8 of august 2008
...so at the end. she was the one who left me...
