Out of reach fantasy

I wake up every morning
with the same old feeling of regret
love messed up everything
but most of all my head.
i keep letting you hurt me because it shows you still care
no matter how many scars i end up with
ill be glad i had you there .

ive heard all the rumors
maybe some truth.
but my heart beat blocked out all the lies.
because my love for you ; oh boy its true .

im so scared to admit
i need you in my life .
after all this time
now all i do is cry
we have had chance but my fear took over my mouth.
i said i dont know . i wanna be single .
then i walk away with tears strolling down my cheeks.
i really do need you in my life .
now life is not life without that blood stained knife.

Boy my love for you was all i had left in me .
now....your just an out of reach fantasy.