It's true I can't make up my mind.
I really want to be with Christina but I know that it will never happen, so I got to leave her behind.
I need to find somebody that I know I can get.
Would it be best to not look for anybody at all and let life work it's magic?
I just hate it when people call me a faggot.
I'm not gay I'm just shy as hell.
I don't know what I can say to women and what I can't.
Other men tell me to just say what's on my mind.
I'm not saying that because I can't afford to lose a woman this time.
While I'm sitting here writing, other men are going to clubs and bars and getting sex.
I don't want a woman just for sex.
I want a woman that I can spend the rest of my life with.
I know I act like sex is everything to me but if it was everything to me, I'd be getting it would I?
I'm scared to talk to women because I'm scared that other guys who like her might get mad and hurt me or something.
I don't like to fist fight because I feel like it's pointless to hurt yourself or another person over some stupid little petty crap.
I still want to be Christina's friend.
It's good to have friends but it can also bring you down when you want to be more than friends and your friend still just wants to be friends.
That's something you have to let go or something you have to handle while being friends.
