Thats a very dark and touching write...
some memories can be this painful and torturing... well expressed...

Nik, I can so relate to this write. This person you speak of does exist in my life and i really do understand every word in this poem and the pain it holds.

Poems such as these make us strong. Keep doing that. This is a definite 5 for me.

A sad, but beautifuly written poem. Very relatable. 5/5

mandy :)

I don't usually do this, but I'm going to start with the end.
Maybe its because its so fresh in my mind, but wow. The final stanza, is a poem in its own. Like, honest to God, you could cut the first two stanzas and have a beautiful poem in the final ten lines. Its bullet writing, goes straight to the core and sticks there. Usually when I'm reading a poem, I'm reading away thinking cool,cool,grand,grand. But the final stanza really hit me, I was so into it that I felt like I was floating. My entire body shut down and just wanted to appreciate the words. And with me, thats hard to do.
But enough of my raaant. Ahah.

First off-
First line was a bit overused, I've used it myself, I think most writers have. The idea of throwing pain, spitting it back etc is an overused image. I think you have some really good pieces in this poem, that the opening weighs it down. Doesn't excite the reader for whats about to come. The opening is always the most important part, because no matter how amazing the rest of your poem is..if the reader isn't in it from stage one its a downhill roll.

The second stanza got into the real stuff. I actually think this poem would be much more effective if you just cut out the first stanza. "Leaking a heavy dose of hatred" - gorgeous. I also fricken adore the musical quality and internal rhyme in "every happy memory", this type of rhyme can sometimes feel forced, overcrowded, but you really pulled it off and gave the effect you were aiming for. So well done.

Theres nothing else I can really pick apart, the last 2 stanzas are fantastic in my taste. I adore them. The only opinion I have on this poem really is to cut the opening stanza.

What I got from this was, the the "monster" may have many forms. It may be your conscience, it may be your memories, it may even be your mind in general twisting abnormally to create a "monster" or in layman terms a disorder. But thats just my take on it.

Nice write. (:

This one. :]