Me?

I'm on a train with blacked out windows,
I don't know where I'm headed or how long I shall stay,
All I know is that I'm going away.
I'm in the cinema with a ticket in hand,
I don't know what I'm watching but it'll probably be bland,
I'm falling through my fingertips like crisp, white sand.
I'm sleeping alone in an empty room,
I don't know how I got here or what changed to make it so,
The only light that of my pupils glow,
I'm writing tired lines about a person and a place,
I don't know myself I lost her at sea,
The person I glance at in each mirror just isn't me.
I'm speeding through a visionless blur,
I don't know how to communicate with anyone here,
It's everything I wanted and yet everything I fear.
I'm playing a ball game with everything around,
I don't know the rules and how to win this fight,
All I know is I will be another person by morning light.