Forbidden Love

*This poem is inspired by a novel i am writing about a brother falling in love with his sister and it is completely fictional. I apologize if anyone of you find this offensive. If you do please let me know to change my category/subcategory submission. Thank you. Enjoy!*

For as long as I can remember
We were always have been so close together
Playing silly childish games
Teasing each other, calling names

I thought that we were just having fun
But who would of guessed the change of heart
Whenever I see her now, I turn scarlet red
From vile and repulsive thoughts which invade my head

Sleepless on my bed every night
Hopeless, I am turning and tossing left and right
Sinful thoughts cross my mind
Strongly in my heart remain etched and signed

The feelings for her are growing stronger
I fear I can not resist any longer
Sinful thoughts are burned with desire
It seems I wont be able to wash out this monstrous fire

I feel I am some kind of a major freak
But deep down inside, I know she is the one I seek
Because I know i am falling so hard and fast
I can't help but wonder how long will this going to last

Dreams of her dressed in the pale moonlight
Oh how I wish I could make her mine
But I Keep my distance out of fear
I do not wish to hurt what I hold so dear

I need to tell her and do things I cannot undo
I need to tell her she makes me feel so refreshingly new
I need to tell her how she makes me feel
Tell her that my heart is hers to steal

She is the most important thing in my life
I wish I could marry her and make her my wife
But If i ever hurt her I'll cut my wrists with a silver knife
In order to keep her safe and alive

From this sinister thoughts I bear inside
Unexpressed feelings being well kept aside
I raise my hands up in the sky and pray to god
"Please send me, far away from her, somewhere abroad"

At the end I know for sure this can not be right
Fighting my urges as I whisper "goodnight"
Takes everything I have to not lean in and kiss her
As I am watching her fall asleep, My sweet little Sister