Pain of love, suicide dove

I guess i dont know where to start
Your making my life fall apart

I know i need you more then ever
Im just scared to be together

Your words are beautiful
So is your face

Your love is incredible
You were born with grace

Maybe its meant to be
Or maybe im just day dreaming

I think im gonna give it a shot
And not just say "been there done that"

Im falling for you
And i cant beleive im feeling this way

Everything is so big
And me, im small

I got so attached
And i know it cannot be

But im hoping maybe
Your falling for me

Im in one place where i cant live without you
Your in another world
And i cannot find you

Im feeding off pain
Your in my mind, dont give me a migrain

Im not asking for your love
Im not asking for you to be mine

Im just asking maybe
Maybe i could die

If i died id be fine
Id have no feeling trying to not realease

I would be free
With no one to cry over

No one to feel pain
I come with shame

So lift your head up high
Dont cry when im gone

It will be my choice
My destination

My death will be graceful
Like your ways

My death will be beautiful
Like your face

I will die in peace
And whisper these words
"i love you, and i promise forever"

I came with no idea
What life would lead me to

Im dying in depression
And whats making it worse is not you

Im crying these tears
That dont seem to stop

Im feeling this pain
It wont go away

Im pale
And im weak

My whole body, in shock
My suicide thoughts
My love for you

You were just a friend
A best friend at that

Im not suppose to love you
At least not like that

I tried not to feel
But im sorry, this is real

Im feeling so faint
I can barely walk

Anorexia ways
Im this way, i thought

You showed me different
But im still ill inside

At least you gave me some life
And i didnt have to lie

You and me
Me and you
Forever i will love you

Your faith in things
I never heared

Your voice of bravery and sucsess
I know your a good person
You dont have to try and impress

I love the way you talk to me
You tell me things
That are only in my dreams

You speak of things
As if they are real

Im suffereing again over
Im starving
Starting over

Im killing
Im dying
Im falling

I didnt think this would happen
Im sorry for the pain i will cause

I cant take it
This i know
Im leaving to reduce all the pain

The lies in life
Will soon be undone

I will be in the sky
Near the sun

I will be there for you
Every step of the way

Just remember me
And remember my name

I died for justice
For less pain

I died so maybe someone will notice my ways
I died for love and maybe for you
So i give you my life
My home and my things

I give you my faith
My hopes and my dreams

I love you, i know
And i beg you to stay
Dont you let go

Im here right beside you
And i will always be

So many people betrayed me
But you didnt, this i know

Never once did you break my heart
Never once did you tare me apart

You never lied, cheated, or played
You told me things, so beautiful, like a song

So remember ur appearence
You unique soul

Remember the love
Our friendship made

Remember my last words
And my face

Im here for you
Look beyond the sorrow
Look beyond the heart

Find someway to see me
Im here, at the gate

Im loving you more
And i hope its not too late

I love you forever
I cant help but hate

Hate in myself
For all of my sins

Hate in myself
For letting you in

Hate in myself
For the things i did

Hate in myself
For letting suicide win