I'm opening my heart so please listen this time,
I really wish I meant it when I said I was fine.
I wish I could tell you to ignore all those girls,
To tell them you have someone whose already your world.
I wish I could tell you to go check your phone.
There should be some miss calls from when I was alone.
I wish I could tell you how I'm always in pain,
How close I truly am to going insane ..
I wish you really knew how hard it is to try
When all you want to do is break down and cry.
And I wish I could tell you I don't hear a sound,
When whispers behind my back is breaking me down.
Yet all of this is want; selfishness and greed
And all of those feelings just isn't me.
Yet I won't deny that I'm losing this fight
Struggling daily and crying each night
if only the silence would turn into words
That they were loud enough so that they could be heard.
But if you knew the truth, you'd only grow sad.
You'd think you were aweful, think that your bad.
If you knew the truth, you wouldn't look me in the eyes.
They'd tell you the stories of the nights that I've cried.
Yet I wish I could tell you, just so you knew
That I'm trying so hard, just because of you.
Your the only reason that I'm waking up everyday,
So please don't make that reason fade away...
You don't have to call my phone if your out with your friends,
I'm willing to wait for an eternity on end.
You don't have to stop hanging with your guys and your girls,
I'll wait for you since you're still my whole world.
So these thoughts can stay silent, it's really no big deal.
But who am I kidding, that line wasn't real..
I'm running away from myself everyday
With the thought of you happy making it okay..
