Book of Longing

Knocking on the door of your room,
I wish I could see the same person I knew;
Looking in to your eyes,
I wish I could feel the love you tried to hide..

Of all the souls in the world,
You knew me better than the rest;
For all the feelings ushered in tears,
You sure knew how to hurt me best..

You would never understand how I feel,
Because all your life, you never felt empty love in real..

What can I say?
I cry myself to sleep, that is my lullaby;
I laugh myself in my dream to be awake,
That's my favorite moment of the day..

I try to hide my tears with a smile,
Only to find them in my heart;
I try not to think of the days I fell,
Only to see myself become a lonely bard..

In the end,
I have fallen for all the wrong reasons..