Secret Crush

I like him so much,
If only I could tell him so.
It's sad to think,
That he will never know.

I shouldn't act the way I am,
I shouldn't feel like this.
Whenever I am alone,
It's him I always miss.

No one knows the truth,
I have to pretend to be happy.
I don't know much longer I can do this for.
Cause inside I feel so crappy.

You see he is my friend,
I've known him for years.
But telling him how I feel,
Is one of my biggest fears.

I know he has a girlfriend,
So why does he flirt with me?
It builds my hopes up,
And makes me think that this could be.

I believe that,
We are meant to be together.
Even if it did happen,
I know it will last forever.

We tell each other everything,
We have some sort of connection.
If I tell him how I feel,
Will I get a good reaction?

I don't want to hurt him,
But I've felt this way for far too long.
Even though I know the way I feel,
Is very wrong.

When this secret is revealed,
I know I will be afraid.
To even look at him,
Or hear what he has to say.

I have to be brave,
Cause it's killing me inside.
No more time for lies,
No more chances to hide.