Hate

Hate
my head is just a big block
nothing entering
nothing remaining
so frustrating
never changing
it hurts
bringing me to suicide
i have two knives
i don't want to survive
but I'm scared
not prepared
what if i don't die
will i get hospitalized
i don't know
all i know is i want to die
i want to stop this
and keep on going
but knowing what i know
makes me want to go
no point in living
if nothing is giving
i have nothing left to go on for
sure I'm giving up
I'm weak
i feel like a prisoner
this earth
is a prison
I'm never going to escape
so I'm not going to wait