This is the beginning and the end of every story in the world.
Are you there? Are you listening?
I don't love you; such simple words (a willful solipsism)
Denial familiar on my straying tongue
I struggle to form these damning syllables, a betrayal of my soul
But I know, I'll do it all again, accept my crown of thorns without interference
Because you taught me to find my tangled self in a world of indifference
I'm learning the sinner's regret, the prayer of the damned
All I want is the surgical removal of my heart
To forget our fluid memories, to twist my disloyal heart in another directions away from these
To lock me, you, us away and throw away the key.
Fragile golden days in the blazing sun,
Gone trickling away like grains of sand in the unfeeling ocean
Vanished without a trace-stray leaves on the winter boughs
Without a beat.
The skeptics say love's a lie
I'm reveling drowning in their condemnation
Because I'll accept any liar, and their conviction
That this pain won't last, isn't real.
And as I plead your name, the silence resounds in anguish
Your name, blessed by God, bleeds on every fluttering page.
I traded my soul for a devil's bargain, thrown away and caged
Somewhere in our fading laughter, as we spoke of irrelevant truths
I lost who I was without you and thought I could return, mourning what we lose
And I stand by the unforgiving susurrus of the unforgiving waves
I cry and cry and cry
As the wind steals your name from my lips
To God's ears.
Love's the beginning and ending of every story
It's the greatest irony in the universe
That is life's private tragedy and public beauty.
