For J....

I remember the first time I saw you, my sweet,
You were here in the lobby, in just a few feet.
It's the way that you looked made my head spin around,
I have fallen for you, but there's more that I found.

You looked up from laptop and saw me coming by,
Didn't know why you looked, and I keep asking why.
For a day we just looked, and I never felt shame,
Searched for you everywhere, and you did just the same.

You approach me that day, and my heart beats like mad.
Your blue eyes and blond hair, hope I'm not turning red!
You say 'hi', and I die, cause your voice is so deep.
And I know that tonight I'm not able to sleep.

Starlight's bright, and the moon whispers sweetly to us
How we talked, how we laughed, how I learned how to trust.
How you made me feel good with your words and your smile,
And how special I felt in your arms for awhile.

The first kiss that we had was as perfect as dream,
It was passion and heat, like the hottest sunbeam.
Wish it lasted as long as live on the Earth,
I'll remember it always, eternally lost...

The next day I was yours, and you also were mine.
I was drunk with your love, like with good ripened wine.
Hottest sand and bright sun under Turkish blue sky,
Salty sea and warm lips, no one, just you and I...

All we had was three days, but then it was last night.
Crazy things, crazy words, all of it felt so right!
How we sneaked to hotels where we could be caught,
Stealing, climbing the gates, you were brave, I was not!

Never felt so much warmth, so much joy, so much fun.
You have told me I'm special, told me I'm the one.
All the things you've taught me, you're my first in all this.
All the things I've done too, every moan, every hiss...

Our goodbuy was so sad that I wanted to die,
When you gave me that bracelet I could not but cry.
You told me not to cry, that it wasn't the end,
And I tried to believe, but I couldn't pretend.

Then you left, and I stayed. All that seemed like a dream.
You returned to life, to your game, to your team.
And I knew I won't see you tomorrow again
Not a month, a whole year with your picture in frame...

Your life's busy and bright, you're a star where you are.
But remember, my love, that I'm not all that far.
Miles away, but just look at the moon in the sky,
Think of me, think of us, and of how we could fly.

I am wondering what you have seen in me then,
I should try to forget you as best as I can.
But each day without you is like hell breaking loose,
How I wish to explain you this simple, small truth.

It's been weeks without you, I am starting to live,
To go out with friends, to eat, smile, not to grieve.
But a moment in skype, when I see your sweet face,
Is worth all salty tears without your warm embrace.