"Dear Annabell,
For starters, I'm going to miss you so much. I can not stop thinking about you. I can't go another day without seeing your beautiful face. Beautiful or gorgeous? Gorgeous is the perfect word for you, my love. Words can not explain how I feel about you. But I can say that you are the only person I have truly loved before, and you make me so happy. I absolutely hate the fact that I can't see you for much longer. When I'm upset you won't be there to comfort me in person, but we have a whole future to make up for that '<3'. I will do everything possible to ensure that we grow old together, babe. Till the day you leave I Will be by your side as much as possible. I hope to god that you are only going to be there for the summer. It would depress the hell out of me if you stayed there for the school year. I don't want to be away from my love any longer than I have to. I want to spend my last year of high school happy and with my girlfriend, and wife one day when we are old enough. And of course, I want you to be happy and with all your old friends, it must suck moving so much.. /: I'm going to try and talk you out of your sadness as good as you do to me. I don't know if have ever told you this, but I truly appreciate how much you care for me and how you are always glad to talk me out of my sadness. I love it, because nobody's ever done that for me before, so thank you babe. And even without me by your side for a while, I'm happy knowing that we will be together forever. It does not matter where we are in the world, close of far, what situation might appear. I know our love will always be unbreakable, Don't worry at all love, you'll never lose me. Ever. I wish we had more time with each other. I think about that night all the time. Being able to hold you close all night long, that midnight walk, getting back to my house and everything got so intense, non stop kissing and grasping. Making two heartbeats fly. Our bodies in one rhythm. Not regretting one second of this moment, me and you together all night long. Together in the dark room, an getting to wake up to your breathtaking voice saying my name, seeing you right by my side as I opened my eyes, that night we easily the best night I have ever had. When you had to leave later on that day I was latterly heart broken. My friends said that I looked like a lost puppy. I thought I was never going to see you again, I didn't say one word for the rest of the day. But I could not cry for some reason... it was odd. I'm going to miss you soo much Annabell. Don't you forget that you are my love. My only love.
I love you, Jaecee...
Last thing ever written to me.
Only a few days gone.
Forever, we weren't meant to be.
And I lost my love.
I called you, my love.
To make sure you're alright.
To tell him how I am.
The answer was not too bright.
It was not you who answered.
I don't know whats going on.
Why are you crying miss?
Wait, what? He can't be gone.
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My love was was not suicidal if that's what you are assuming. He did not hang himself, or overdose, or a gun to the skull. He was killed by being over powered. No one you that he was epileptic, his mom told me that he could not stop crying and gasping for air, he was so overwhelmed that I have left. In the night when everyone was sleeping he was wide awake, overpowered by his own body and mind, his seizure made him fall of the bed and he hit his head on his nightstand, bled for hours before anyone knew about him lying in a dark room crying in lonesome. Before anyone could find him he was going to the gates of heaven. His mom found him later that morning when she thought it was strange that he did not come out to eat that morning. She didn't know what to do other than freeze and bawl at his feet. I loved him more than anything, I went right to his house from 1,000 miles away when I was only gone for two days. I will never forget seeing him lie on the hospital bed, gone. This was when I was 15 and he was 16 Jaecee is not his real name and mine is not Annabell, I'm protecting my love from anymore damage than already done. I will never forget that day I lost you forever, it's time for me to say goodbye, forever we will be together, see you on the other side baby. I love you.
