Those, These Days

We sit watching each other in this silence that seems louder than ever before.
Both our minds running with thoughts but each thought of ours not matching with each others.
My mind I try to stop as it replays those days in which all our love was as if a fairy tale and ponder the way the love these days feels as if it is forced upon.
I ask you what you are thinking and that million dollar response comes out,
Nothing baby, what you thinking about?
And from that moment Im frozen. Do I tell you my thoughts or bullshit you with lies?
You make me aware that the truth is necessary for the feelings beneath and from there I explain those and these days in which my heart climbs and falls through this roller coaster of love.
Those days I would awake in the morning anxious to reply to those good morning texts that would wake me from my slumber and make my day flow much easier,
But these days it feels as if I must text you in the morning or there is no guarantee my yearn to speak to you will be fulfilled by the ending of the day.
Those days we would wait impatiently for school to end to be reconnected once again with our smiles, laughs, and butterflies within,
But these days it feels as if I cant even get the smile that comes from your loving I use to get from you when I first walked up to you.
Those days I was the one to keep you happy through your mind and calmed you through your body when something was wrong,
And these days I feel as if Im what is wrong and their what is keeping you thinking right.
Those days the love was naturally strong enough to make it through hell with the heat burning through our hands as our fingers were entwined into each others and still nothing could brake the bond we shared,
But now these days a crooked spark of a blunt skips the beat of my heart knowing it can end what love we try to keep afloat through this pain of love and lost as the days keep passing on.
Those days and which days we try and reminisce on the game we once effortlessly played
as we try to find the winner in a love game that ends in a draw;
Knowing there is no one else that can replace these days as those days like the two original hearts that became the one love since the very beginning.
Those, these, or which days will bring us back to the everlasting love that my heart, soul, and mind search for from you.