Realising you

I saw you as a mate
I saw you as a friend
Then I look at you again
And knew I couldn't pretend

My feelings for you were growing
Spiraling out of control
I had no one to confide in
Not even my own soul

I hate myself for this
But I wanted you to be happy
I saw the girl you loved
To me she just looked tacky

I got you two together
And then made you hate me
I cant say I feel better
But I suppose it cant be