Forever and Today

Sometimes it feels as if things are better left unsaid
To leave the uncertainty of things to stain the air.
I'd rather the noise of the silence to fill the room
Over the noise of all things you've wanted me to hear,
All things you actually meant to say.
Knowing how you feel about how it ended this way.
It was easier to get through these long days
Thinking you didn't have a care about me
Thinking you simply felt better off this way.
Thinking you didn't feel the same.
But as we spent our last night
As just you and me
As if it were back when we were considered "us"
The words you had whispered to me
Beneath the tears that spilled down your face
As your arms enfolded me with our last embrace.
The last passionate kiss that seemed
To ignite the winter night
With the feel of a blazing summer day.
Will be the last words that will always remain.
In the back of my mind,
In the center of my memories.
"Better to have loved and lost
Than to have never loved at all."
In the middle of my own tears,
I had laughed that saying off.
"Then they never loved."
I recall replying to you.
But little did I know in that moment
That would be the truest sentence I've heard.
That it would be the hardest sentence to say.
In that night you reached your hand out
To softly stroke my cheek
The combination of tears never stopped
When you whispered the next sentence
The tears just increased tenfold:
"Having met you,
I now believe in true love."
I remember choking on my words,
Feeling as if my heart had been taken.
I wanted to scream
I wanted to feel something other than
This heartbreaking anguish of the knowledge
Of this being the last night I could ever spend
With the man I had wanted to spend my life with.
Of the knowledge that he did want this as much as me.
Knowing though, that this is how it would be.
We would be standing at that crossroad
With our hands clasped tightly,
As if holding on for dear life
Not wanting to face the next move.
But here is where we must part,
Go our separate ways.
Let go of the love,
That most people search their entire lives for,
Even if it is just to get a small sample.
I have never felt stronger for someone,
I have never thought I'd ever forgive someone
For the mistakes that were made,
All the hurt that had been thrown my way.
I never thought in all my life I'd find the one I'd love.
The truest, honest, rest of my life, love for someone.
Nor did I ever think,
I wouldn't get the chance to spend my life with this love.
Never did I think on that first day,
When you asked me to be yours,
That I would be spending our last,
Knowing that my heart would always be yours,
Knowing that I could never have you again.
So there we stood at the crossroads.
As star-crossed lovers,
With a final fate more desolate
Than that of Romeo and Juliet.
Because where they died without the other,
We have to live with the knowledge,
That we can't have the other.
That the love we had come to make,
Will always be that tantalizing memory.
And with the knowledge
That I will always love you.
Forever and today.