Able Now to Let Go

Hold on to yourself

it hurts more than anything itself

i didnt know the damnage that was done

the type of damnage that was made and can't be made into new

The years of secrets and lies now are all open

Looks and stares and cries

Heart beats fast because i can't believe that this is all gone

and Your never Going to be the person i met

It's all been taking all away from me

Rain falls and i can't move

i feel numb, i feel like i have no life in myself anymore

i rather lay in bed and close my eyes

i hold and rock myself to sleep, i can't handle the pain

that you caused me.

Why and how could you be so selfish

i waited for so long to see how long our love would stay

but the years kept passing and i never felt that you would be this way

and your lies were more than enough to handle

just leave, and don't ever come back, you have done enough damnage to myself alone

i want this to all go away, i dont want to feel it anymore

i wanna breathe and i can't

Its crazy how someone can be so in love with someone

and then let go as if you were never even alive.

Sitting and my arms rapped around my legs in the corner

rocking myself back and forth , and i feel like im bleeding of pain

the pain that you caused

I feel like i am being held on a string

i close my eyes..

i walk out the door and i feel the sand

i start to walk and i feel the ocean water, the waves go over and onto my toes and feet.

i just stand there.

and breathe and let the water take over me.

the wind is blowing...

i can smile again

i feel alive

i walk into the water, and start to swim

and swim and swim and let the water just float me away into peace...

I have been taken over by happiness itself, and now i have been excepted into internal love forever