Don't know what love is

He would never call me... would he?
He would never talk to me on MSN... would he?
He would never send me a message on my phone or on Facebook... would he?
He would never take the first step or initiative... would he?
Why, Lord, why???
I see it all passing by...
I don't want to be a complainer, but it makes me want to cry
It feels like he is stabbing in my heart
I can't listen to love songs, because all they sing about are things I have never experienced
And I can't watch romantic movies, because all I see is things I have never been through
Those songs and movies make me sad
It's painful to listen to and to look at

When I finally meet someone I really like
At first, things seem okay
But after talking to each other a few times
You and I are always going our own way...
It's never lasting long, always really short
And in the end I'm always left alone again
I can only think, why are you doing this to me Lord?
What is this good for?
Because I don't see it..
I just want a little bit more
Is that too much to ask?
A little bit of love, a guy who really cares about me and really likes me?
All these guys who give you false hope and make all these promises
All sounding really nice, but never happening in real life
Some only look at your outside, not at your inside
To some guys we're nothing more than a lust object
It should not be that way, girls should be treated with respect
I want to be the positive thinker
The one with hope and faith

The one who never gives up
Even though things are going wrong or not the way I'd wished
But now it's hard to still stay positive
After all guys said and did to me
Negative thoughts are rushing through my head
I am now losing hope and faith...
Thinking, will it ever change?
Will I ever experience what love is?
Instead of other people having what I miss?
I see other couples and think: I want that too
It would be a dream and wish come true...

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