Never again

When you feel you are at your lowest,
You find a way to go even lower,
Nothing ever goes my way,
I'm just a love thrower,
Why do I always believe there's something,
I always end up alone,
In the end, I believe in nothing,
Happiness cannot be shown,
I see an illusion,
A shadow of my existence,
I enter my seclusion,
I keep my distance.