This is what i feel

Emotions are speaking here
keep writing

Nice piece! Few criticism:
' I'm sorry..if I feel that you already change now' I think no need for 'that'
'I want you at the first time' I think you may mean 'I want you as the first time...'
'I'm sorry..if I feel that you already change now' I think you have to change it to read as 'I'm sorry..if I feel that you are changing now'
This aside, I enjoyed the reading.