As your title suggests you have some thoughts that keep you awake at night...you just have to put them across in a more poetic fashion....by no meants are they bad just need little tweak here and there..check the its eg..it's... a lot of potential here...

Its alright I can handle the pain.
In this line i like your self confident,
really nice poem keep writing.

As Hellon commented, you have a good foundation that needs tweaking. I have taken the liberty of sending you a revised version of your poem via private message. With that said, I think you have voiced feelings that we all have at times in our lives. I know that I do or did when I was younger.

I believe that writing helps to sort out those feelings that can leave you confused after multiple nights of sleeplessness. Honest feelings. You should never be ashamed of the way you feel.

This situation is something that almost all of us have experienced in at one time or the other and it is always best to let it all flow out...the world is such.

Good job with the write I was going to send you some changes for the poem through private message but I saw that Sylvia has already done that..keep penning :)