I try to ask myself

I try to ask myself who did I want you or him. I try to answer my own question but it was to hard. Without him my life felt over .empty without smiles. To drain to live what I was looking for.without you I miss our love making. The spaces we fill holdin eachother. And Lookin in your honey brown eyes. I try to ask myself why did this happen to me Fallin in love with two guys at the same time. It.seen like I was going back and forth cause I couldn't decide. Only to find my heart was going to be scar forever . IM with him now but I think of you. I love you but sometimes loves him less. I never though for a moment time was running out. Cause I though back then I could have what I wanted. I try to ask myself who did I want to be with. After being with him and not seeing you for awhile. I felt lonely . Depress . Sad when we wasn't talking heartbroken when you said it was over. But you still come back in words and say I love you and u want me and for me to know why I try to ask myself why me after all I done. Will I ever find the anwer yea I know I will has soon has IM with you.