Is there still hope?

I don't know how to start off,
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do with all these feelings I have for you.
You chew me up and spit me out,
And leave me feeling inside out.
I try to please you, with all that I do.
Hoping that one day,
One day there will be a me and you.
But the more I dream, the more I hope,
I know it will always be a "no",
I know you care, with what you share.
But it's the things you do,
That make me loathe for you.
And I loathe that feeling where my heart lies,
Every time you make me cry.
I've always tried to please you,
You know that I love you,
All the shit I have done,
I have hurt nearly everyone!
And to what, get a thank you and that's pretty much it.
I've always had a feeling that it was never really worth it,
We've talked about trying, and that is all we will ever do.
Cause you know I'm up for, but it always just comes down to you.
And you don't feel the same way,
No matter what I do,
I will always be an annoyance to you.
And even after what I have said,
You will just go on ahead,
You will always leave me behind,
No matter how kind you say you are,
No matter how kind I am to you,
You never truly gave a damn about me,
When I've always gave a damn about you.