Left Again

My heart broke when I didn't see you face. Not wanting to admit that i felt like I died inside. I feel tears trying to show but I don't allow. I hold back all emotions until I am alone. I feel emotions of sadness creeping upon me.
It becomes harder and harder to hold in. How could I have let this happen again? How could I possibly believe I ever had a chance. My heart is shattered once again although it was never really put back together.