Loving someone who Only see's you as a Friend.

After all these months
What are you suppose to do
When the person you loved and cared for
Only See's you as a friend and nothing more?
How can you tell someone you love them
Tell them you care for them
Tell them you're their one and only
And then reject them, making them feel Lonely.
I don't know what hurts more
seeing someone you love, love someone else
or being with someone you love who only see's you as a friend??
I'm speechless, numb, lonely, and hurt
I wanna cry, lie, die
I'm in so much pain
Even just to start up my day, I'm already drained.
I'm suppose to be happy for him
because as long as he's happy, i should be
but how can I go on knowing he's out their
happy and it's not because of me.
I've been broken since the day he told me
"Yes, I like you...... As a Friend"
from then on, I already knew
That this. is. the. end.
I made it seem as if it didn't bother me
Nor did it hurt me
But as each day passes, weeks, months
I realized how much pain I went through just to be around him.
I'm so deeply in love
and yet so hurt and broken
but what am I suppose to do
I'm speechless and unspoken.
Crying myself to sleep every night always makes things a bit better
I let all my emotions free
and though I just wish I'm dead
I know these tears are all I got to shed.
I never do wait for anyone
but he's so amazing, I felt as if he was the one
as months pass, I'm starting to realize
maybe I got it all wrong, that he is not the one.

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