Incomprehensible love

I hate you so much
You give me pain
I don't understand
Why you give me rain

I like you so much
You give me sun
I don't understand
Sometimes I'm done

You make me jump
You make me fall
You are so vague
Can't deal with it all

You make me like you
I don't understand
Why do I like you?
It's out of my hands

You make me smile
You give me tears
I wish you were gone
I wish you were here

I want to hug you
Don't ask me why
I want to slap you
You make me cry

One minute I'm happy
The next I feel miserable
All these different feelings
You are incomprehensible

You put me in a roller coaster
You have no idea
You are ignorant
If you could only see

You swing me back and forth
You don't seem to care
As if you enjoy it
It's so unfair

You can be so harsh
You don't treat me right
I don't even understand myself
For wanting you by my side

I've put myself in a vulnerable position
Because I want you to stay
It might be all for nothing
You could just run away

I want to trust you
But you can be so mysterious
Therefore I don't know
If you are serious

I wish I could think
There will be another guy
But I just can't
Even though this could all be a big lie

From the start
You've been playing with my heart
You could cut it into pieces
And tear it apart

I just don't get it
I can't let you go
It's stupid, it's ridiculous
I know...

You might not deserve me
But still I want you
How is that possible?
I have no clue

Still there's something
That makes me hold on to you
Don't know what it is
Don't know what to do

Why do I feel this way?
I don't understand
It's a single battle
I can't comprehend

I wish you the worst
You hurt me so much
May you be unhappy forever
We won't be in touch