Hiding From Myself

Come to Her slowly, give Her your possibilities.
Allow Her the time to understand the future, you must know that She will cherish the memories.
The time She has spent with you,
these years She has grown with you; tears She has given so freely,
please have the patience to be there, She needs you.

Patience requires dedication.
A constant reminder of all those lonely nights and shattered days.
After so long you found Her, you looked into Her loving eyes and saw the hurt,
you saw the pain of rejection, of betrayal.
All you have been through projected into Her and you knew that you where not alone.
She understood you and your heart ached to see Her feel that,
you needed to make Her better, to hold her in loving arms and feel those shattered pieces
become whole once more.
Days, weeks, months you faced trial after trail, facing a new dawn, a new memory
and you got through it. You held on.
For Her. For Her you wanted to make it all better, would fix the world to be with her.
Only the thought in your mind haunted you.

Would it all last?

Never understanding that enemy of subtle betrayal,
of a gnawing thought that ate through you.
Day by day you saw her smile, her eyes reflect back love and admiration.
You tried so hard to hold it back, to show Her what She deserved,
to give Her your confidence, to admire the artwork that was Her mind,
and the beauty in Her soul. You showed Her the world, the one She gave you.
And still you continued, hid down a small thought.
The thought that made you.

Would it all last?

Slowly your world came together, a small child growing in Her womb.
The love of your life bearing a child you would raise together,
that you would love, cherish and protect together.
It made you stop and think,
would Her attentions be divided? Will she love me the same?
In your mind the same always ate at you.
You did not see the truth before your eyes, instead you hid.

Would it all last?

You showed Her love as you always have,
in the end you even came to love the family you had built.
Time flew by and together you moved on.
Day by day, trial by trial.
Sometimes you wonder, could things be better?
You searched for problems in perfect situations, She began to see.
Arguments broke out, silly petty things.
And they made you wonder.

Would it all last?

You find yourself thinking, would She be better off without me?
Am I holding on to strings?
One day you look into her eyes and you see something,
you hide and wonder just what it is.
Is it hate? Does she not love me anymore?
What am I doing wrong?

Would it all last?

You find youself drawing away, hiding without thought.
You don't want to cause Her pain.
Still, you continue. You show her love, though now with reservation,
maybe if I draw away I won't hurt her. I can protect her.
You see what your doing and so does she, your afraid to continue on,
it all seems so old.
You thought to yourself, you told yourself it was for the better.

It Wouldn't Last Anyways.