I miss why whater

Something has a hold on me that takes control of how I feel, it takes over my whole mind and I cannot tell what's real.

This time I really think I've gone undoubtedly insane, put me in a strait jacket and abuse me with the pain.

IM sorry that I couldn't tell you the words I never said, I should of opend Upto you but I kept to myself instead.

I can't shake the unwanted feeling of how bad I messed up, I pushed away the only thing I wanted and I loved.

I've lived with this agony for awhile with regret, it's gotten easier to deal with but I just can't forget.

Walking back to summer with my secret truth, heated by fixation I miss being used.

I wish you never left me and never walked away, I wish I could have said to you these words I meant to say.

I dont know why it is so damn hard to just say how I feel, I've never been the type to tell my lips are always sealed.

I just can't forget you resistance is not cue, and wanting you so much is not enough to say I miss you.

I hope you don't move on from me atleast not yet I have to see, that if IM holding onto a summer memory, or a love thats still amazing.