Overthinker

It was never my intention to lose myself and come back new,
Although I am proud and happy to be growing in a new mind.
I can't help but wonder what direction I would be heading if I never lost myself in you.
I swore to keep half of me while I collide with you.
But as we crashed in this wild journey of love, pain, disappointments, jealousy, happiness, life...
I became addicted to your mind and I believe you became addicted to mine.
I continuously find myself dazed off in daydreams involving your being - good and bad.
And it hurts to imagine you ever being gone and uninvolved with me,
But then the thought wonders off of you and onto me.
How far I could get and what I would learn and evolve into if I was thrown into the world alone.
What I would be able to think of, to put my insane, wondering mind into.
What was meant for me - only.
Then the ongoing thought returns back to -
What if I was meant for you? And you for me?
This crazy thing called love got to me
It found me falling and it silently surrounded my body and swam through every vessel and cell. It clouded my brain and injected my heart.
Until the love of myself awakened.
Love vs. Love
Who will win? Who will takeover?
Or will I let myself go purposely -
Sacrificing me for your high.
But then I go again -
Will the high come down...