I Don't Blame Her !!!!

Where i live my country,there is a bloody war Where everyone thinks he is a tsar

Daily killing daily bleeding people from all sects
feeding on the outer hate and the demons from all aspects

Its almost forbidden to love from a differnt side
because almost everyone trying to be insidious and snide

But there was a little girl her name is Laura
she was full of life and the true meaning of happiness
her super dad was her idol taking care of her
He loved her like no one ever did

LIKE any other day ,They were waiting for him
but specifeclly that day it was gloomy mirk day

The closest friend of him , betrayed with a cold remorseless heart
not only stealing his life but tourting laura's life apart

And it was all about the sects what a shame ...

It was a turning point from a glory shiny beautifull girl
to a broken cracked unsecure soul making it her worst life burl

She cant trust anyone not anymore
and i dnt blame her she cant hold it anymore

And here comes the strangest part
I showed up into her life
while she is having her own strife

We talked and kept talking many hours
slowly geting to know eachother

Under her deep scars she hided her beautiful smile
she was the mosbeautiful soul i had known in years
she is kind differnt though she was fulled of fears

She is a free thinker hard worker depending on herslef

Day by day night after night i was falling for her
though i promised myself not to love not anymore

We agreed to meet , i travelled to her city
counting the hours and minutes telling myself wait and you will see

Its already 7 pm waiting her majesty to come
her heart and mine are beating on the same thrum

She showed up with her pretty smile
can't believe that she might be mine

We talked and walked uncounted steps
with each step i just felt like I'm full of pep

Her eyes are nothing like ours
They were so deep and bright, you would believe they were stars

Her body is perfection though she denies it
It makes my head spin with every glance I give

She is so sweetheart shy and I adored her soul

Told her at the end its been a long time i didn't felt my heart beats
Yes you did made it you made it feat

But i already know what she will tell me
and i don't blame her because we were from differnt sects

She told me Tarek hold on I dnt trust I am not stable I dnt love !!!!
Gave her a deep smile , told her you are my gift from God
I promised myself I will take care of you even if I will face tod
take your time how much you need
I am sure at the end i will succeed
there is a gloden rule in this life
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
after rain theres a rainbow, after a storm theres calm, after the night theres a morning

Let the days shows you what I am into
Promise you i will be the best person u ever knew

Just give yorself a chance to trust in me , and you will find it Infiniti

I'm not going anywhere...
I wont turn my back...
I will always help out...
Be there when you need me...
When your at your worst...
Or even just for advice...
I wont go anywhere...
For as long as i live...
You can treat me however you want...
And pull away from me...
But i still have some hope...
And im not leaving...
No matter what happens...
I'll always be there by your side
From now until the day i die
This is a promise from the heart
I knew i loved you from the start
I will fight the whole world for us , its all about me and you

I WILL TREAT YOU LIKE I THE WAY I WISH HE TREATS MY SISTER , THE PERSON SHE WILL ENDS UP WITH !!!!

I will swipe all your fears and tears

After months all things were going alright
we were getting closer by everynight

Though her friends and mine were aginst what was in our minds
We fought and insisted and planned to go far and not letting go
but deeply inside she was still horrified

I could leave and and break her heart
But the thing she never knew
I will be with out her so blue...

It was after midnight we were stressed having our final exams
i was supposed to be studying and she was supposed to sleep
Called her and we started talking like anyother day
she callmed me down trying to make me feel sturfy
with her angelic, cherubic voice
Felt like iam the luckiest man on earh

But suddenly out of nowhere , the devil came
...
messing with her thoughts and driving her insane

She told me Tarek i just can't even trust you not even with the simplest stuff
you can just hurt and betray me

In few seconds everyting went gray
Hardly breathing having no words to say

We hanged up but here comes the ugliest part
I think its my last massage she told me Tarek goodluck with your life
....
Went deeply bleakheart feeling my body inculcated with a knife

Spending days and hours trying to figure it out
ending everytime with out any thought
...

When the sun rises slowly in the morning
and I awake from a sleepless, dark night,
I feel how strongly I miss you, its burning.

I try to focus on something else, with all my might,
but it doesn't work, I still miss you with deep yearning.

As the night comes again, I know there is no reprieve,
just another sleepless stupor, tossing around and grieve.

Since when did her smile make me go weak
Since when did her tears make mine start to leak

Why does this happen when I am always so strong
When people called me superman , I guess they were wrong

How do I last now that my heart has grown so cold
Being without you its like my heart was put on hold

Even I am with you its like no one can get in the way
Even when its apart , I think about you all day

Hopefully and praying to God you come back and this nightmare ends soon promised you I wont talk to you but you can't imagine what iam being and passing through

When I told you I love you couldn't find any stronger words to say it thought actions speak louder than words , and it's already I feel like its been years since the last time saw your face .

Hope you are taking care of yourself , doing great in your exams . I just wish you happiness guess it says it all my dear.
Just know I miss you, and if I could I would take your voice over the silence any and every day ...

Its been a whole week
Since last time
We talked
Miss you
<3