"When you think it's the end, that you can't fathom feeling another way, than it hits you."

Than = then. :)

"I never modeled my life like it was this grand exhibition to be tried by all. I was not an open book. Then he entered my life, and I became vulnerable to him. I don't regret any of it now"

Beautiful. This is SO beautiful.

I love you, MA. You're such a sweet spirit. This is such an incredibly person write, and I can truly appreciate and understand every individual word. This moved me to my core and I can relate to you on such a personal level. Sometimes people are brought into our lives to be a lesson, and while it can bring with it all kinds of chaos and hurt, it can bring about this reality and self realization that you'd never know otherwise. Good for you to find silver lines, to love deeply, and to be a passionate woman. I have always respected and admired you, my friend.

A soul searching write to discover the self and to know the truth. each lesson learned is an experience and which only makes you stronger and prepared for the road ahead.

You know what, this line stood out for me so much:

etched in someone's heart the way you always dreamed of.

^^It is so true..been down that path and now that discovery has not only opened my eyes but has led to a new meaning to life.

All the best dear and I know you too will find that very heart...take care :)