I'm Done

I can't believe you would just let this go
I can't believe you can just stop talking to me whenever you feel like it
It stuns me how you can just give up and go on with your life like we never had anything.
I know that you care about me enough to tell others to keep their distance.
I just don't understand why?
How you can lead me so blindly into something i keep hoping will happen but doesn't?
The lord keeps showing me your real intentions and i keep taking you back.
Why do i keep doing this?
Because i keep that sliver of hope for us tucked away inside me.
I keep it there just in case you come to see that we are perfect.
I keep it in hope of you changing your mind.
How much longer can I do this without killing myself esteem in the process?