Nams, an honest write. We can be with someone or something and never stop to get a close enough look of how much damage they or it is doing to us. It's not until we are free from this person that you gain perspective. You really hit home with this-well done my friend-
However, it's not actually a person. It's alcohol. I struggle still at times, but I am begining to realise I am doing the right thing. Maybe one day I will pick up a glass again, but for now I shall stay sober..
N, I read this and thought this person or thing had a real hold on to especially with the way you described how it/they made you feel and I was completely gripped from start to finish the only complaint is it seemed to end to soon (not abruptly) as I wanted to read more so I read it again them read your comment and realised just how personal and difficult this write is so I thank you and also admire you for being so strong and sharing.