Elizabeth, I liked this a lot. You were very honest about your feelings about this person, knowing they still held sway with you to a point but also that they aren't orbiting your heart system like they once did. Well done-
I love metaphors. It's a challenge to continue to build up poem after poems with descriptive metaphors that makes you want to relate in a way that's endearing. Reading your poems this last few weeks is like waiting patiently for Amazon to hurry his/her ass up and deliver my package, I want more. Just an observation, you keep coming up with different but intriguing imagery with the same "white knuckle" phase, and I think it's brilliant. God only knows I don't want to be in that state of mind in real life, I'm suppose to be an adult with normal knuckles ha. Good poem, thank you.
Interestingly penned, seemed more like a letter you
have penned to this person or you having that conversation
as he stands afar and listens. Your usage of words and the flow
\makes this poem so vivid and felt!