While I don't personally know you, Skylar, I know what this release of emotions is like. This chaos and how this can become addictive. When there's anger, pain and hurt and it seems this is the only way to cope. When I was trying to recover from self-harm, the hardest thing was allowing myself to feel the bad emotions, to accept that I don't have to hold it all in and carry that weight.

I hope you find a healthier release, but know you have support. Keep writing if it helps.

~MA