Chrissy, I don't hold the answer but I do know what isn't the answer.

Stay strong. There really is always a silver lining to every cloud.

Ben

As someone who has reached rock bottom a few times in my life I can say that Life is really fluid. You cannot possibly imagine the possible joys that are waiting for you in years to come. When things are dark it seems like the end of the world but they really do get better so hang in there. Sending you a warm hug and all my best wishes. Milly x