Steph, I've missed your poetry! What made this super emotional as a reader is that first, you chose to share this with us. And two, the last line, of loving through every day. I am so glad you have him, though he may not know every thing you are reminded of as mentioned, having someone who tries to understand and be whatever you need (be it distance or someone to simply listen to), that is something beyond precious.
There is an endless amount of pain in your words, in your voice, but there is also hope. I wish the best for you and am seriously overjoyed to see a new piece from you <3