Sharing this kind of moment, and having someone be able to steady you and be what you need, is beautiful. Panic attacks can be some of the most debilitating things, and sometimes you just need someone to wait it out with you. Your imagery in this, your voice, and becoming grounded held such honesty and genuine emotion. This felt so intimate yet at the same time, relatable and understandable, the times when we feel we should have enough strength to do this or that, but the reality is we can't do it alone. I truly felt the continuous "I'm sorry"s as well, because that is something I have to train myself to no longer say. To not apologize for just being, or for going through something that I couldn't help.
The layout here, and wisdom of replacing "I'm sorry" with "thank you", and just the support in this is incredibly heart-warming.