Feeling isolated through low self-esteem must be awful. It's easy for someone like me to say, pick yourself up, but I'm sure that I haven't got a clue how it is for you. My only glimpse into your world is through your poetry. Perhaps you torture yourself, in order to feel something, anything at all!? In any case, you are part of something, you are part of this community and I, for one, am glad! Xx
Depression, eh? As a teen, I had acne. I developed the acne Vulgaris. Big zits on my cheek and forehead that hurt like Ouch. I couldn’t sleep sideways because it even hurt when my cheek touched the pillow. My parents though I was depressed because of that. Well, it did impact my self esteem, I ended up with acne scars ... but nah, I really didn’t care much about it. I was depressed because I couldn’t study like I wanted because well... life... gets in the way sometimes and things just happens. Anyways,
My self esteem is good. Specially, after hearing a lady (a stranger) tell me that I was pretty because of the way I am, not necessarily pretty looks hahaha. I didn’t know whether to call that a compliment or laugh about it. I mean, I was getting complimented but I was also told I wasn’t that pretty. Can’t have both ways, I guess. Why am I saying all of this? I usually just share what the poem inspired and this one brought those memories back. I don’t really know you, but you are a good writer. I hope to see some less depressive writing from you. But by all means, keep on writing like this, It helps.
Hope you are well.