I was angry and jealous

I feel it consuming me,
it devours me completely
and my existence becomes
more and more stupid
and superficial.

I'm not living anymore,
I'm not a girl anymore,
I'm just a reflection
of his existence,
I wonder if this is love.

I need his attention to feel,
I need him to have emotions,
without him I feel empty,
opaque, numb.

He's the first one who devours me completely,
who takes everything from me
without even asking,
he doesn't need me,
but I breathe him.

Please look at me,
talk to me,
think of me,
only me.

I feel like I'm going to throw up
when I see his lips mention
another girl.
Why her and not me?

You call me pretty, attractive
and cool,
but that doesn't seem like enough
for you to want me.

You've done so little for me
to want you
and I feel like I burn inside
whenever my eyes meet yours,
isn't that love?

I want you to breathe me,
I want you to drown in me,
I want all of you.

I am dedicating all my feelings to you,
all my existence,
all my love.