I saw you for the first time
Since we broke up
You wanted to spend every dime
You had in your pocket to make up
Make up for the pain
The pain I went through
The pain that still lives here
And still lingers in my ear
We went out to eat
You wanted it to be a special treat
To make up for the tears
And to drown out all my fears
After we went and played some ball
Wow how I suck at it
But you never let me fall
Then we went to the mall
We saw some of our friends
And they all looked at me
In disbelief
How could I be standing there
Well aware
Aware of the problems we have
We went back to your house
I spent time with your sister
And you stayed quiet as a mouse
Just staring and sitting near her
After watching a few movies
I went upstairs
To go find you
And when I did I just stared
You were drinking
I started thinking
How can this be true
This isn't you
You said you were sorry
And it was just a sip
But I still worry
What if you slip
I went and took a shower
To try to get rid of the pain
I want our love to be like a flower
That sparkles in the rain
But these things
They keep making me run
They continue to sing
And ruin all my fun
After I finished
I went back upstairs to you
And I just cuddled with you
One thing led to another
Just to be there for each other
I miss the days we had
I miss the days we might share
But I hate this pain I have
And I hate the things that are still there
It's just a sip you say
But that doesn't take the pain away
I don't know what to do
Except to be true
Be true to you
You still need to grow
And I still need to heal
This process will be real slow
But this pain is just to real
To real to both of us
