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I want so much to trust again.
You don't know how long its been.

My heart was like an open book.
You don't even know how long it took.

I met you and knew there was something there.
But what do I do when I'm so afraid to care?

How can I give you all I have,
When it's hard for me to even laugh?

Part of me wishes I could just die.
Cuz then there would be no more tears to cry.

Part of me is filled With fear,
But yet, I still want you near.

I've let you into my world
Hoping to be your only girl.

And yet I can't get past all the lies
And the hate and sadness that I hold inside.

All I can do is cry as I sit here alone.
I want so bad to pick up the phone.

I wish there was something I could do,
To make myself admit that I care about you.