Look Away You F**kers

(a.k.a thoughts on when I have to leave you)

Look away you f**kers!
at the tears in my eyes...
as I sweat and endure
a nameless insidious
misery.
No kind words or touch
can lift my silent aching
scream as the tentacles of
loneliness tighten their
suffocating grip around my neck
and strangulate and muffle my desperate
gurgling cry...
Drifting in my own lonely orbit,
as expressionless
as the man in the moon.
Alone in the dark/all out of place.
No one to talk to/no familiar face.
Ignore!
my hanging face...
as I succumb
to a clawing, burning,
icy grief,
whose itchy razors
claw and burrow and furrow
deeper and deeper into
freshly wounded nerves.
Oh my love! my tender one,
I cant breath without thee.
I'm weak and powerless,
buffeted by an indifferent
malevolent wind as a parade of blank
apathetic faces march across my
desolate existence,
each one a reminder that
you are far far away.
Turn away as I fall writhing
into a bottomless pit
whose only light comes
from echoy mono chromic
memory's, already blurring
at their frayed edges.
Dislocated and deserted/all out of place
pain red raw/broken bottle in the face.

Everything stands still
when we are apart.
I cant stand this hibernation
of my senses that descends
upon my soul as if some dark
inky satanic twilight is cloaking
and shrouding my limp
capitulating body,
bringing forth a numbing
restless coma.
I'm lost without you/afraid and alone
your my reason to live/my direction home.
When you reached out and held
my hand in the night
you made me feel safe and warm
in my sleep, in my life.
Love is beautiful.

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