What i\'ve lOst

This hurts more than i could have imagined
i love u more than would've thought
I'm knowing this is over
and wishing that its not
I'm sick when i remember
what it is I've done
how i wish i could go back
erase the moments one by one
i cry when i reminisce
think of what we could've been
praying that just maybe
you'll feel that way again
part of me wishes i could die
but thats a wish to waste
if i could just go back
the things that I'd erase
i promised I'd never fall in love again
wouldn't allow myself to cry
so afraid i didn't realize
that it wasn't you, but i
tears me up inside to know
the things i put you through
went against all odds
so there'd be a me and you
my heart longs for you to love me
without one ounce of hate
but it goes without saying
that it is much too late
wish that I'd believe me
yet the words i cannot find
sometimes thinking about you
takes up all my time
when i met you somehow
i knew you weren't the same
I've lost what i thought I'd never find
only got myself to blame
feel like i ruined something
that was gonna be great
don't wanna end it like this
don't want it to be too late
but i know in my heart
and it pains me to say
that part of you hates me
and you'll never ever feel that way
just want to tell you I'm sorry
wish i could prove it somehow
just want to tell you i love you
even though it doesn't matter now
i will remember you forever
but thats the last thing i want to do
hurts me the most to know
I'm the reason I'm not with you
i can wish all i want
and dream on forever
but the reality still stands
we'll never be together.