The Risk I Toke To Love You

I\\\'ve written these words to help you know
the love, pain, and hurt that I never did show.
I knew your Tia Vanessa, my best friend she was,
I was aware of that fact that you didn\\\'t know me.
After some time, she introduced me to you.
How surprising that we became friends too.
At that time I had no feeling of this sort.
I guess it\\\'s because - for me you were short.
Not only that, but you were younger than I.
It looked really funny when we would stand together,
but after a while we laughed and had fun,
I had this feeling that I knew was love.
I started to like you - I don\\\'t know why. You were just so goofy
you just gave me a feeling that made me lose my breath wen you were around.
I knew in my heart that I couldn\\\'t let you know,
Because of the risk, I kept it on the low as an easy-going flow.
The days after that, our friendship was great,
But then I thought, \\\"What if I was too late?\\\" too let you no how much u meant to me
I gave it more time, more consideration,
In order to make a wise decision.
I thought you wouldn\\\'t like me; the fact was so real.
But what would I do with the emotions I felt?
I gave it a try, but not so clearly to you,
I just thought that I would give you a clue.
I was afraid if I told you, my newest friend,
our fun and laughter would come to an end.
Then it came the time to speak my heart,
Even though I knew that our friendship would grow apart.
When I told you that day, you took it so well,
No longer in that decision would I have to dwell.
The minutes, hours, days, weeks, moths, and yes years after that went by so fast to fast in fact,
But I knew that one day our relationship would no longer last.
Cause the reality of it all was we are far apart
soon I started to feel nothing like before;
I guess you could say I liked you even more.
But soon after a while, it started to come true,
farther apart I became from you.
At first I didn\\\'t know what was going on,
but as soon as I stepped into reality, you were already gone.
Now you are just a picture, a dream in my mind,
but trust me at times I\\\'m happy when it\\\'s your memories I find.
When I remember those times and recall your voice,
I think of the past because I really have no choice. The past is all I have of you
I tell you that at many times, you\\\'ve wiped away my tears,
and at many other times, you\\\'ve thrown away my fears.
Please don\\\'t ask why because I can\\\'t exactly say how,
but it doesn\\\'t really matter because you\\\'re gone from me now.
Just remember that at anytime, anywhere,
to me you could look because I\\\'ll always care.
Even though we went our own separate ways,
I\\\'ll never forget our happiest of days.
Tell me your problems, I\\\'ll understand.
Tell me your needs, and I\\\'ll reach out my hand.
But now that\\\'s just a fantasy, as true as it may seem.
Yes, you my old friend are just a dream.
For always I\\\'ve wanted your hands to hold,
Because I wanted you to be my friend, my boyfriend, my every thing it was more valuable than gold.
For one year, there were things you had said,
that with your words and love, I was led
to show your kindness and gentle care,
And to treat in a way that I knew was always fair.
I wondered many times about the relationship we had
what wrong did I do, to make it so bad? I no being un faithful to you but for that I am sorry for that I\\\'m sad for that is way I don\\\'t deserve you
but I gave you everything you wanted, almost anything at all.
I gave you my heart, and my everything.
But I\\\'ve lost you now, you\\\'re gone forever,
just remember that I\\\'ll forget you never.
Yes, loving you was worth the risk, though it put my heart in such a twist.
But for all that I\\\'m glad that I had taken the risk because it brought me closer to you forever more.

Always Love,
Evelyn Deniz
a.K.a.
*~*P.I.M.P.Cess*~*
I love you baby
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