I hate you

I hate you
i love you

these words i always say
all because my emotions are always in the way

i hurt you
i cried
i wish i was dead

then all my pain wouldn't go to my head

i want you even more
every night i cry

a blue ocean
that would cover the sky
then from that you get the salty sand

wishing
and wanting
just to hold your hand

i would let you hold me
I'm just scared to fall

never to hear your last remaining call

to hear how much you hate me
and never want to talk too me anymore

if you don't want me
then i don't want you
and why am i crying an ocean so blue?

these are my emotions
i threw out the door
screaming and saying
what should i care for?